Gratitude for Awakening

Dearest David,

Thank you so much for all that you have given me. I know
that I have projected the authority problem on to you but you have truly
demonstrated defenselessness and Love. You have provided a container for me to
work through my deepest fears and it has been up to me to use it or not. I have
been scared of this awakening in ways I did not realize before I came to
Messengers because I was oblivious to the depth involved. You encouraged me to
find the `fizz' to build up my confidence to be able to work through my deepest
fears. You supported a plan that I could never have beheld myself and saved me
probably over a hundred years already. Anytime I have asked you for something
you have sincerely listened and supported me if I needed it.

In many ways I feel like a disciple whose mind is going
through a fast wash but the way that the Spirit set it all up through you is
beautiful. My first 2 or so years here was such a dramatic rise through huge
confidence and learning and now it feels like I am entering realms of undoing I
cannot understand yet have a sense of faith that I will be pulled through. I so
want to share with you my deep, deep gratitude for it all. I just have these
ideas that it is about going deep into darkness so that I can pop out on the
other end into the light. In writing this letter I can see the good feeling I
have in writing my gratitude and allowing that to come through as well.

I have had a lot of confusion lately about how this all
works and you have reminded me that there is nothing to figure out but that it
is a constant surrendering. I truly can say that the depths of this undoing is
unfathomable to me and I have felt like giving up but there is such a stable
presence in you, and what you offer, that those thoughts do not long stay as I
again, quickly regain faith in the plan of the Spirit. There has been no
prolonged pain or deep dark nights as with your help, things have moved through
quite quickly. The plan here has actually been a focus on the plan of awakening
without fear and that this is entirely possible. It is about miracles and a fire
of passion. That is what I want to support. I want to support that passion and
yet not be in denial about what I am feeling or thinking. I want to support you.
It feels like it is in a personal way as well but I feel it out of sense of deep
devotion.

The ego focuses only on what is lost and what is wrong and
I want to undo this. There must be a better way. Thank you so much for your
witnessing that no one is turned away and there is always a welcome back no
matter what. It has brought up fear of loss as my own unforgiveness is
threatened by forgiveness. I want to have the courage to apply this as
faithfully as you do.

I am confused about the way and the firmness at times
but have over and over been shown that it is not at all what I perceive and in
fact total Love and Understanding pouring through. I am in awe at the courage it
takes to say some of the things you do at the right time so that the pain of the
ego is avoided and the Spirit can be returned to quickly (if that is one's
desire). There can be no personal investment in relationships or this world to
allow such a non-filtered approach.

You keep saying enlightenment is non-personal and yet
this has been a difficult one for me as I have so many ideas of what
enlightenment is. I want to join and connect and see you for who you are. I want
to be your Friend. Thank you so much David for seeing me as I am.

Love eternally,

Jason

 

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Hi Jason,

Thank you for the Love and Gratitude, and for sharing all that is on your heart.
You and the rest of the Messengers and the ministers and the volunteers of
Awakening Mind and Living Miracles have been the focus of my attention in recent
years and months. The undoing of the subconscious darkness of the ego is very
intense at times, and I am so very grateful for your steadfast devotion to
exposing the false beliefs and embracing and experiencing forgiveness. It has
been an absolute Joy working with you along side so many dedicated Mighty
Companions. Now is a time for me to step back from the day to day cocoon of
safety, and from all the discussions we share on a daily basis. This year I am
drawn inward, and though I still have travels and gatherings the majority of my
focus will be a reverent experience at the Living Miracles Monastery and
community and publications.

This year, for the first time ever, I am opening to the idea of a full-time
assistant to route and organize and file the emails, SMS messages, Facebook
messages, Skype chat messages, voice messages, and letters I receive. For years
I have been online for hours and hours answering emails and posting videos and
writings, and while volunteers have begun posting new Youtube videos I have
still been making posts to this and other mailing lists and answering hundreds
of emails. I now feel Guided to step away from this Internet activity and have
a full-time assistant receive and prioritize the many messages and
communications I receive, as well as forward messages to the appropriate people
for handling the requests.

This new full-time assistant will essentially be a mystic in training, as
everything deeply used in Purpose leads to the experience of Peace of Mind and
Mysticism (and of course Enlightenment).

I am grateful for all the service you have shared in devotion and know the
Spirit will Call you in ways that lift your awareness into the experience you
have yearned for. The Messengers and everyone will continue their mind training
Guided by the Holy Spirit in highly individualized ways. It seems that travel
will still be part of many of the Messengers pathways, and communities or pods
in various parts of the world will welcome the transient ones and the volunteers
as well as those who reside in these pods.

The Living Miracles Monastery will continue to host Messengers and volunteers
and ministers, and I can feel the peace and reverence of abiding at the
monastery for the majority of each year I am Called to serve on earth from the
State of Mind Called Heaven.

I salute you for your mind training and the devotion of you and your fellow
Messengers and ministers and volunteers. You make Lovin' Fun!!!

In the Deepest Appreciation,

David