Law of attraction... my stories... part 1

I'm going to add some personal stories regarding "The law of attraction" or "manifestation" that I have personally experienced in the past several months. There is no coincidence to some of these experiences and what is really amazing is that I had never heard of this phenomenon until I was in a place where I was forced to exercise the needed efforts to acquire what it was that I needed to survive.

Going back to last summer of 2008, I'll try to make a long story short to paint a picture for you of where I was at with my life. I lost my son in the spring of 2007. For the entire year following this tragedy, I had experienced many rare and traumatic situations all at once. My life in boyfriend turned very abusive, threw me out, stole all my money, damaged my car, told my counselor I was dangerous, called cps on me, and the list goes on and on. I was in a position where I had nowhere to go, and he had turned anyone close to me in my life away from me with lies and deceit for his own personal gains.

So here I was, in a condo outside of my hometown (another manifestation story that I probably should have started with). I had my sons box of ashes, a photo of him and my daughter who was with her dad until I could be thoroughly investigated, a blanket and a pillow. I slept on the floor and was SO GRATEFUL just to be alive.

Every day I prayed with pure gratitude. I had experienced so many close calls to my safety the prior couple months and it was not fully over. I didn't know my way around my new town at all and my car was on its last legs with dirt dumped in the gas tank and tires slashed and patched, about to blow. I managed to make it to the welfare office for my first visit to get resources that I needed to get back on my feet. I acquired a cheap phone, a working number (yes another miracle I could tell about) and I was able to keep in contact with the state office, cps, and my daughter.

I had NO MONEY at all for rent. I had absolutely nothing. I was still so incredibly grateful that there was a lock on the door. I was so grateful that the social worker was so kind and helpful to me. I was so grateful for the view of the golf course from my porch. I was grateful for the blanket I had on the floor, the two beach chairs I had in my trunk, and my 12 dollar phone. I had a couple books that I would just stare at in awe. I was alive. I was safe. The sabotage was almost over and I had people now who WANTED to help me and didn't think I was "crazy" with grief. They knew I was in danger and they believed me when I told them my story, unlike the help I tried to get prior.

Instead of laying there angry and resentful of the hundreds of things that went wrong that put me in this place, I counted every blessing I had. I wasn't TRYING to be grateful. I closed my eyes, let myself drift away, and whispered to God, "Thank you, thank you, thank you. Everything is going to be ok. I don't know how. But I know it will." When I said these words over and over, I said them with conviction. Nothing could possibly be worse that what I had already been through. This I knew beyond a shadow of a doubt. When I prayed, I asked for nothing. I thanked God for the strength I had mustered.

So I had a couple days before $600.00 rent was due. The landlord was a personal friend of mine but I stil had to come up with that money and was unsure how. I was only going to receive $340.00 on the first and it was coming fast. I didn't even worry how it was going to happen. I just knew that it was going to work itself out. I was grateful I had made it that far. It seemed to clear my mind and comfort me just to "imagine" that the rent would be paid. I imagined that it already was. I visualized that everything was ok. It was a tool that helped my brain clear itself of all the stress and intrusive thoughts that were forced on me. I was not going to fight my own brain. I was just going to change my perception and be GRATEFUL.

The state called me after a good couple hours of praying and meditating. They informed me they had made a huge mistake over the past several months. I thought, "Oh no" at first. They proceeded to tell me that for 6 months prior, they had underpaid me by $100.00 per month. They told me they would automatically deposit that amount into my bank account the following day. Yes, you guessed it! $600.00 rent, due days away, came out of nowhere and now my rent would be paid. I was gifted an entire month of mental rest in an instant! I cried with relief, knowing that this bought me time to get everything else in order and that I could finally collapse in my new environment and rest. $600.00, the exact amount I needed, at the exact time I needed it. Walla!

So that was one of the first of many manifestation experiences I've had. I will post more in the days to come.