My Humble Abode (Parts I, II, and III)

This is the true story of how I nearly lost my mind.

My Humble Abode (Pt I) 5-16-09

I left my humble abode that just so happens to be where my mind used to live. Now it appears as though I have taken a long journey, now it seems i was on a quest all along. I am getting homesick though. Homesick from being who i used to be. I used to be a little crazy, now I am just a little sane. I took the Journey of self-expression and self discovery, and i want to rediscover who i was. I just want to go back to my humble abode. How close am I? Am I in the forest, or still far away from home, living in a castle away from reality? I think as I ask these questions, I am slowly brought back.

My Humble Abode (Pt II) 5-26-09

I have come to a clearing and my humble abode is not far from here, It is in the distance, with the Sun setting behind it. Before I came to this clearing, I was just lost in the woods. I was on a path I was sure was right. But I just had the sun in my eyes, and became blinded to my own path. I had many guides along the way, telling me whether i was right or wrong, but I never listened to them either way. There was one special guide who stopped me dead in my tracks and made me turn around. Any further and I might not have made my way back. I would have been lost in the woods...forever.

My Humble Abode (Pt III) 6-7-09
And so I have returned to my Humble Abode. I had to check my foundation to see if it was cracked. I had to knock on my own door to see if anybody was home, and surprisingly, a ghost of myself opened the door. He took one look at me, one in the mirror, and then disappeared. He now lives inside me, my mind. My Humble Abode is actually my soul. The Abode was trashed for a while, but i cleaned it up. My mind took a Journey and I got lost on my way back. For a while, the world I explored was so new and exciting that I didn't realize i needed my Humble Abode. For I had discovered a Castle. This castle was so vast and extravagant that I never wanted to leave. Then some friends, some guides, told me that I couldn't live in the castle. It was just too big for one person to own and I got lost in its library of wonders. Finally I left the castle and applied the knowledge i learned in there to try to find my way back, through the forest, to my Humble Abode. I may have left the castle, but now I was lost in the woods, thinking I was taking the right way back. I tried to follow the sun, and the moon too, but they both blinded me when I looked directly at them. So I decided to trust my friends, along with myself. And there it was, my Humble Abode, upon the hill, with the sun setting behind it. When i got back to it, I noticed it had been somewhat weathered, like nobody had taken care of it for ages. I am just happy it was not destroyed. On the inside everything was so disorganized and torn apart. I have spent the past few days organizing everything with the new knowledge I discovered on my journey. I'm sure I will go on more Journeys in my lifetime, but next time I think I am goona let part of myself stay and watch the abode while I explore. Maybe then I can check on myself, see how my soul is doing. From now on I will be taking good care of the place, the Humble Abode in which my mind resides

These were actually written as I was coming back(notice the dates) to reality. I started my LSD journey of self expression on Easter Sunday 2009 4-12-09. This was the most creative time of my life, however I lost control. I am eternally thankful for my friends who truly saved my soul. No regrets though.